Written by our very own MM Ambassador Mckenna Coyne
Approximately one year ago, I purchased a journal from Hosanna Revival which is one of my favorite businesses of all time. One thing that sets this journal apart from others I’ve had in the past is the space on the inside of the front cover where you can write a word that describes who you are at that point in time. Once you’ve filled every page, there’s another chance for you to write a new word that describes who you are after completing the journal.
When I started the journal, the word I put down was “stuck.” I was in a season of my life where I had made the decision to transfer schools, I was working at the same job I had been at for 2 years, and with the global pandemic, it’s not like opportunities to work somewhere else were knocking at my door. All I knew was that trying to relive the past wouldn’t help me grow and the unknown of the future scared me enough to make me not want to move forward. Fast forward a year later, almost to the day, my journal was now full and it was time to write a new word.
One thing you should know about me is that I am a big overthinker. To be honest, if overthinking was a business, I’d be the CEO. I’m just that good at it. So when it came time to think of a new word, I put way too much pressure on myself to try and make the word something really profound. I sat at my desk for a while and pondered what the word should be when in an instant, the word “secure” came to mind. I gave it some thought but me being an overthinker, wondered if this was the right word to choose because it seemed so similar to stuck. Yet every time I tried to come up with a different word, I could feel God repeatedly saying to my heart “secure, secure, secure,” so I went with it.
Even though the words stuck and secure seem so similar, there is a profound difference between the two. When you're stuck, you’re doubtful, sad, frustrated, anxious about the future, overwhelmed, and desperate for your circumstances to change. You lose trust and sight of your purpose, and feel that you need to know all of the answers before you do anything. When you’re secure, however, you don’t need all of the answers about the future because you have confidence knowing that God is the one who holds your tomorrow, and the next day, and the next. Also, you fully trust that wherever God brings you is where you’re meant to be and this trust doesn’t waiver. When you’re secure, you are more grateful for your circumstances even if they don’t change, you place your identity in Jesus, you go to God’s word before the world, and you carry yourself differently because you live knowing which side of victory you stand on and who is standing with you.
When you’re secure, the foundation you stand on exudes the faith you have in Jesus and the strength you’ve gained because of what you’ve gone through. When you’re stuck, you’re so busy wishing for better circumstances that you fail to realize where God has placed you is exactly where you need to be. You get out of life what you put into it. Don’t waste it by being stuck. You don’t have to know all of the answers, friend, nor do I think we would want to because how would our faith grow if we knew all there was to know. I used to believe that I needed to know all of the answers because I looked at the unknown as a place for fear to dwell, but because of Jesus, the narrative is flipped. I’ve been in the unknown, and if I’m being honest, in the midst of my senior year of college, I’m still there, but viewing the unknown as a place where fear dwells is missing the point. The unknown through the lens of Jesus overflows with beauty because this is where He transforms our heart to see that we are fully known and fully loved by the Kingdom of Heaven.
As we get closer to the vision God is making a way for, but dwell in what we think should be, we’re missing the faithfulness that is coming and has already entered our lives.
Psalm 40:2 ESV:
“He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure.”
Your Friend Mckenna