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An Audience of One.

A blog about Perfection written by our very own MM Ambassador Anna Huynh.



Hi my name is Anna Huynh and I am a perfectionist, accomplishment driven, and people-pleasing... and let me be the first to tell you that it is not fun at all. In fact, it’s exhausting and draining to the soul. I think it’s one of the harder things to ever admit because if we can convince everyone else that everything is going well, we can trick ourselves into believing that we don’t struggle or need God when in actuality we do. We ALL do.


As amazing as the feeling of winning is, it can only last for so long. As rewarding as it is to accomplish something that you’ve worked so hard for, that to can only last for so long. Getting all the compliments and praises from people is nice and flattering, but those words are not God’s Truth, and can not sustain you.


Performance has been a huge part of my identity for as long as I can remember and I still struggle with it. I was a dancer, pianist, pageant girl, musical theater gal, cheerleader, in student government, you name it, I probably did it. Performance has been ingrained in me and I just loved being busy. I am not saying that any of those activities are bad, and they can for sure be used for God’s glory. However, I would use my accomplishment and success as a security blanket to avoid talking about the struggling parts of me that I dared to not expose.


It was my mask. It was my sense of security. Because if I could avoid my feelings and project an image of myself that was always happy, busy, and accomplished I could avoid talking about the hard stuff. The hard emotions that I have been so quick to suppress and hide. This is dangerous and avoiding the chance to dig deep to what is really weighing on your heart for the sake of protecting your image can weigh you down so much. God doesn’t want you to live a life of performance, He wants you to live it out in PRAISE for Him!


For you, your “performance” may mean trying to put out a false image of yourself just so you can fit in, living a life for the sake of getting the “good jobs” and “well done” from your boss or teacher, working hard to win every competition, or just getting people to like you - that kind of life is exhausting when you aren’t living it to honor and love Jesus.

I think we always like to say how our failures don’t define us, but our successes don’t either. I lived a good majority of my life full of “look what Anna did” instead of “look what Jesus did". Your achievements are just a part of what you're doing, they are not all that you are.


When you choose to worship your accomplishments rather than God, you will be disappointed over and over again. Why? Because we aren’t always going to win, we aren’t always going to get the responses we want, we aren’t always going to get an A on the test, we aren’t always going to get what we want, and we aren’t always going to be the winner.


Thank God that we aren’t defined by our feeble attempts of worldly success because we were made for more than that! We were made to be more like Jesus. If you are in a place where you feel like you are constantly striving, be encouraged because when we are living for God and not just ourselves, we don’t need to strive. We don’t need to outcompete. We don’t need to impress.


Let the One who made you, created you, and formed you be what defines your life. Unlike a trophy, crown, or accolade, what God says about you is a treasure that will last till eternity and will never be forgotten. When we choose to have faith in Jesus and believe who we are as His children, we get to live for an audience of One and in that He is well pleased with you.

GOODNESS + TRUTH


We are His child…

But to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God. John 1:12


He has set us free...

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. Romans 8:1-2


In Him we lack nothing…

And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 2 Corinthians 9:8

PRAYER


Dear Jesus, I thank you so much for the beautiful person who is reading this right now. It is no mistake that they are reading through this blog today. You know their heart and that they feel the weight of the world on their shoulders right now. I pray that you would drop the chains of accomplishment that are weighing them down and preventing them from being vulnerable. I pray that they would see themselves as you see them and that they know that you are far more concerned with who they are becoming rather than what they are doing. Lord, please encourage their beautiful heart by reminding them that they are not defined by their mistakes, failures, success, or accomplishments. I pray that the striving would end and that they would want to live a life in full devotion and praise to you. Thank you for allowing us to live in your love.

Amen




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